I Love You, But I'Ve Chosen Darkness

I knew exactly what I wanted to say
I was there, free of all my pride
Standing in front of the one I once called brother
I emphasize, I knew exaclty what to say
But the words didn't come
Not because of some stupid pride
Nor because of closeted anger
This time the words didn't come
Because they weren't necessary
Ask me again tomorrow and I will say "Bullshit"
But I'm gonna miss you, damn I miss you.
Not only I knew exactly what I wanted to say
I'm pretty sure you knew what I wanted to say.
Maybe I said all I wanted to say
Perhaps I said it with that goodbye hug
Or maybe I said it when I looked at you and said
"Catch ya later"